And just like that, my first born is entering his last year of pre-school. Four years ago I was dropping him off on his first day of school, that was such a huge step. Just like for any parent, one of many big monumental moments. This month, will be too, but with so many more emotions. I’m scared. I’m excited. I’m all the feelings.
I’m scared he is going to walk through those doors as my baby, and come out a big kid. I’m scared he won’t want and need me all the time, that he will become more independent. Don’t get me wrong, we yearn for independence, but I know I’m going to miss him needing me for (almost) every little thing! I’m scared he isn’t going to remember all the fun times he had in pre-school, though it’s a good thing I take many MANY pictures. I’m scared he will forget his friends he has made or they will forget him. I know he will make new friends, but such amazing friendships have blossomed during pre-school. I’m scared about all the new concepts he will learn in pre-school and he will be defeated. I’m scared he will be scared. I’m VERY scared that this is how I will be for every new year he will start. This being such a pivotal year, I’m just plain scared.
I’m excited. I’m excited for everything he is going to learn this year. I’m excited to drop and pick him up from school, with a smile (most of the time) on his face. I’m excited for his imagination to grow and creativity to continue and for him to use it more and more this year. I’m excited for the old and new friends he will play with and build those friendships. I’m excited for his new teachers to get to know my little boy. I’m excited for him to begin reading–which is crazy to me. I’m excited for him to try new things. I’m excited to get on a routine again– though I will miss these crazy summer days with the fam. I’m excited for him to build more confidence in himself. I’m excited for everything that comes in store, because it’s going to be amazing.
I’m all the feelings. This year will be such a big year for our boy. For us as a family. The last year of pre-school is going to be full of emotion. I still can’t believe it is happening. When he was 3-months old, I trusted for others to take care of my baby. I remember crying when I left him, and you know what? I will be doing the same thing come the first day of pre-k. Lets be honest, I will be crying this year and on.
Anyone else out there scared, excited, and experiencing all the feelings for this upcoming year?